Mother's Day/Sister Call

Well Mother's Day was Sunday as you all know and well it was fun. I enjoyed the day, but to be honest all I could think about was what was missing. I try so hard not to allow all my thoughts to be on Cierra, but at times it seems like its always on my mind. This doesn't mean that I don't mind talking about her if someone asks, because I'm fine with that. I like when people ask about her, it makes me feel like they remember her. I guess what got to me Sunday was that I spent the whole day trying to enjoy myself and have a good time with my family and I just couldn't seem to get in the mood. I just kept thinking about what she would look like, what new things she would be doing, how everyone should be doting over her. This was all me, i was the one bringing this upon myself. I feel so bad about this, because it was Mother's Day and all I did was wallow. Im sorry had to get that out, anyway my sister Christina called and it was wonderful to hear all about who's she's teaching and what she's doing. She is a wonderful person and I know that she has helped many people. I miss her so much, she gets home in 4 months. She seems like she's having the time of her life.

Also I would like to say that I love my Mother, she is amazing and I would be lost without her. She has taught me so much. And I would like to say that I love being a mother myself. Belle and Cierra have brought me so much joy. They are both so beautiful. I have learned so much from both of them. I am so grateful that I have them in my life. Belle keeps me going and she reminds me everyday how much she loves me. She gives kisses, plays with her toys, runs everywhere and is still so very snugly even at the age of 2. I am so grateful that I have been blessed with my two daughters, even though one is in heaven I am still so happy I have them. I hope that I am the mother they both need me to be.